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8:46 p.m. - 2010-04-22 I've really enjoyed my time alone this week. It is really a relief that instead of feeling afraid to be alone, I'm actually doing things I enjoy and having a great time. I can feel the life slowly fill my soul again. I see beauty and excitement in things that I would have been numb to just a few months ago. I am so grateful. I read something today that really hit me. About being kind. Only kind. In this moment. I remember a time when I was able to walk this path. About 9 years ago I was at a place in my life where I felt like I was at total peace. No lingering grudges, no gossipy nature, forgiving all...And I slipped away from that. I will find it again. I am getting too old to waste another minute in turmoil that can be avoided. I am too old to find myself with regrets when I can no longer go anymore. I feel closer to it each day, but I've got alot of work to do. I WILL get there..... Work was excrutiatingly slow today. We continue to plod through each long day in the shadow of a dying Postal Service. Wondering if the next job eliminated might be yours. I have 20 years of service, so I would most likely have a JOB. The conditions would just not be nearly as attractive as my present position. I would probably either die from the physical labor or my butt would be in the best shape of my life. I just hope we can buy some time....I get a few more years in.... Getting late. Better turn in.
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