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10:39 p.m. - 2006-04-01
Dreamy day, lonely night
My mood is pretty dark tonight for someone who had a day full of light. The weather was absolutely perfect and this was one of those days we all deserve, but rarely take. A day for total relaxation.

I figured that since next Saturday marks the beginning of a week that will be a whirlwind of activity, it would be best to keep it low-key this weekend. A very good idea.

I cleaned around the pool, cooked a little breakfast and lunch, and other than that did little but read outside and enjoy the wonderful weather. Tonight I lit every candle I could find around the pool and it was even more amazing. But lonely. Craig was asleep early and I was left to my own devices, which very often is not a good thing...lol It's funny.....I ache for alone time, and then I get some and it happens to be on a night when I really don't feel like being alone.

A medication Craig recently started has been instrumental in providing more long lasting enjoyment in our sex life. I asked him if he was taking Viagra???? A very nice change but a little disheartening....I'm thinking lockjaw here??? haha

Why do I feel compelled to reveal such little tidbits of TMI????

Anyway....

I read alot of my book "Soulcraft" today in preparation for my Sedona trip. It was eye-opening to say the least. I think the romanticized expectations were a little bit naive. The more I read, the more I realize that this is not all about me. It's about my place in the world, and how I can give back as well. It's also about me of course....and learning to be my most excellent, authentic self but so much more. I hope to release alot of negative energy that has been flowing in my life for many years to those magnificent red rock canyons. I got an email from a guy in Casadega today giving me the name of a good friend in Sedona and cautioning me to stay clear of the downtown, rip-off, touristy area. He said:

"Keep moving further away into the wild behind Cathedral Rock, use your heart as your compass."

"You need to retouch in with you feelings and shut off your mind
and enjoy your dance!"


I'm very excited.... I do SO love to dance!!!!!


G'night


 

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