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10:39 p.m. - 2006-04-01 I figured that since next Saturday marks the beginning of a week that will be a whirlwind of activity, it would be best to keep it low-key this weekend. A very good idea. I cleaned around the pool, cooked a little breakfast and lunch, and other than that did little but read outside and enjoy the wonderful weather. Tonight I lit every candle I could find around the pool and it was even more amazing. But lonely. Craig was asleep early and I was left to my own devices, which very often is not a good thing...lol It's funny.....I ache for alone time, and then I get some and it happens to be on a night when I really don't feel like being alone. A medication Craig recently started has been instrumental in providing more long lasting enjoyment in our sex life. I asked him if he was taking Viagra???? A very nice change but a little disheartening....I'm thinking lockjaw here??? haha Why do I feel compelled to reveal such little tidbits of TMI???? Anyway.... I read alot of my book "Soulcraft" today in preparation for my Sedona trip. It was eye-opening to say the least. I think the romanticized expectations were a little bit naive. The more I read, the more I realize that this is not all about me. It's about my place in the world, and how I can give back as well. It's also about me of course....and learning to be my most excellent, authentic self but so much more. I hope to release alot of negative energy that has been flowing in my life for many years to those magnificent red rock canyons. I got an email from a guy in Casadega today giving me the name of a good friend in Sedona and cautioning me to stay clear of the downtown, rip-off, touristy area. He said: "Keep moving further away into the wild behind Cathedral Rock, use your heart as your compass."
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